Anak oh anak..

2 tiga hari ni hangat dgn berita2 tragis yg berlaku kepada anak-anak di luar sgt...kalau ikutkan mmg tk berani nk tgk ...tp hari tu on jer tv mmg tgh scene budak tgh kena gelek..terus menjerit sambil peluk auni..mungkin aksi agak dramatik..tp tu mmg spontan sampai faridz yg berada dlm bilik air pun keluar sbb terkejut aku menjerit sambil peluk auni..takut apa2 yg berlaku pada auni..terus aku tunjuk tv..die terus response tk berani tengok..ada dlm fb..tp die tk berani tgk..tapi aku dah tertertengok..gigil la masa tu..lepas tu terus sambung dgn bayi kn kelar terus tukar chanel..sbb mmg tak sanggup dah

smlm sebelum tido faridz tunjuk gambar baby kena kelar tu..aku terus tak bole tido..mungkin agak dramatik..tapi mmg aku tak bole tido..terpandang2 bayi tu..sambil mengusap2 auni zahra yg tgh nyenyak tido..sambil mengalir air mata aku

mungkin aku mmg dramatik..tapi aku mmg tersentuh..tgh taip ni pun berjurai air mata ni..hari ni terbaca dalam sebuah blog Cik Geli Geli..komen ttg penyebaran gambar2 tu..aku setuju dgn komen die..dn aku tersentuh lagi baca entry die air mata aku berjurai walaupun entry tak sedih pon..

malas nk komen dgn pelbagai perangai ragam dan sifat manusia..terlalu ramai yg dh buat kecaman..kutukan..maki hamun..dunia dah akhir zaman macam2 benda yg tak boleh diterima akal dah terlalu banyak yg berlaku..

aku mmg terganggu.. tetiba sgt sedih melihat anak-anak kecil ni..teringat betapa susahnya nak dapatkan auni zahra dulu...dan ramai sgt teman2 yg masih berharap untuk diberi nikmat anak..bila apa2 isu pasal anak kecil aku akan tersentuh..pelbagai kisah bayi malang..yg mati dgn pelbagai cara yg menyakitkan..rasa pening pulak taip ni...ingat masa auni lahir bila selepas die dibersihkan terus diberi kepada aku untuk di susukan..aku cakap Assalamualaikum Auni Zahra..anak mama..sambil menangis..dan auni terus mencari susu..terasa satu perasaan yang maha hebat..mendakap anak sendiri dgn penuh rasa cinta dan kasih sayang..dan perasaan maha hebat ini masih ditunggu2 oleh beberapa teman...Allah menjadikan sesuatu untuk kita melihat dan berfikir..kita mungkin tidak dapat mengubah apa2..kita hanya insan yg sangat kerdil..tak mampu mengubah dunia tetapi insyaAllah akan memberi yang terbaik buat dunia kecil ku..

Ya Allah insan kerdil ini berharap padamu Ya Allah..jadikanlah aku ibu yang terbaik buat anak-anakku..yg mampu memberi mereka sepenuh kasih sayang..perlindungan serta kehidupan yag baik buat mereka...jadikan aku ibu yg sentiasa sabar..Ya Allah lindungilah anak dan keluargaku dari segala bahaya dan musibah Ya Allah..berikanlah mereka perlindungan, rahmat dan kasih sayangmu Ya Allah..jangan la kau duga kami dgn dugaan2 yg berat Ya Allah kerana sesungguhnya hambamu ini amat lemah Ya Allah..

Air Ajaib

Setiap insan inginkan rupa paras menawan serta kulit yg cantik berseri-seri...saya tidak terkecuali..kerana diriku begitu berharga..


Sebenarnya saya ingin ucapkan selamat tinggal kepada air ajaib yg berjaya membuat ramai orang menjadi cantik..tetapi keajaiban itu tidak terjadi padaku..aib sajer akan terjadi sekiranya diteruskan pemakaiannya..adduss..adakah mereka mmg cantik..adakah aku mmg tak cantik..ok sentap..tak bole elaborate..nt akan mengalami sindrom kurang keyakinan diri..menangisi kekurangan diri..dan gejala tidak mensyukuri nikmat tuhan..cukup

bagi menyedapkan hati..kulit saya adalah super sensitive..sbb tu saya tk sesuai dgn produk mahal yg banyak bhn kimia ni..saya sesuai dgn produk2 bayi sajer..spt head to toe shampoo yg tak pedihkan mata..minyak yuyi cap limau..dan bedak anak saya jenama anakku..sbb sensitif jugak dgn bedak baby johnson..bole..

apapun..terima kasih kerana pernah menjadi milik saya dan menjadikan saya orang cekal yg membelek muka sebelum tido sms kamu ada bersama..ok mari kita pegi watson dan beli skincare saya dulu tu...jom!

Entry ini tiada niat utk menjatuhkan pengeluar atau pengguna air ajaib ini..ianya adalah pengalaman peribadi seorang insan yg berkulit sensitif atau comel mulus spt bayi..jgn la berkecil hati kerana keajaiban itu akan dinikmati dgn cara berbeza2 oleh setiap insan..

14 bulan

Auni dah 14 bulan...mulut makin becok..vocabs utk 14 bulan
Tatit...cantik
Tacih..time kasih
Ayah..tok ayah
Bred..bread
Baby
Adik
Tetek
Baf..bath

Sgt jeles..suke lepuk/pukul sepupu hanya krn tk mau berkongsi toys

Tarik rambut mama kalau mama tgh sayang2 papa die

Tak mau lgsg susu botol..sgt suke ribena..keelllaasss ko jahh

Bila kn marah terus tutup muka..mcm menangis..rupanya nk cak mama die..aksi bodek mama die..mama mesti cair masa ni

Tsgt manja dgn papa dn terlalu dimanjakan papa..bila mama emo..papa yg sentap..jd kalau marah dgn anak wajar dilepuk sajer papanya..

Sgt suka makan spt mama..bgn tido sajer terus ke dapur sebut maman..dh makan juadah di hari raya..dh mkn nasi lemak..nasi ayam..harus dikwl agar tidak gembol spt mamanya

Sgt suka tiru apa yg org buat dn ckp...

Semakin cerdik kamu auni zahra..semoga terus membesar mjadi anak yg sihat sempurna..cerdik berakal..berilmu dn beramal soleh

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Salam Aidilfitri

Salam Aidilfitri..Seribu Kemaafan di pohon di atas segala kesilapan dan kekhilafan diri ini..Semoga Berbahagia bersama keluarga dan tercinta serta berhati-hati semasa di jalanraya...

nangis tau!

Mama, Auni dan Susu Mama

#Entry ni adalah berdasarkan pengalaman sendiri..kalau ade rasa meluat terhadap ibu yg menyusukan anak seperti..ko bolehla..ko macam ni..aku ni mcm ni...atau tukang susu tegar yg sangat extreme spt wei knp ko tk bf anak ko..knp..knp..itu semua alasan..ko kena..ko mesti..bla..bla..bla..sila abaikan entry ni!haha

I believe that every pregnant women always prays that they will manage to breastfeed their lil baby so do i..During my pregnancy I keep on searching the doa, surah and all the petua that can help me on my breastfeeding process after the delivery. I also got the info from the support group, internet , book ,magazines etc.

I really wanted to breastfeed my baby as everybody knows the goodness of breast milk so i wanted my baby to get the best from me but from my research I found that I had the ‘not so lucky type of nipples’..the flat one, shame.. I started to worry and tell my mom and my super mom gave me the super fantastic advice that what I need to do just massage my nipples or….tarik..picit or whatever techniques that can reshape the nipples..at first I thought it was gross but amazingly it really worked on me. Clapped my hand that I managed to reshape my nipplse, anyone needs my help..

I was happy that after almost 9 months of trying all kind of tarik and picit techniques my boops were in the good shape that ready for breastfeed

On the 19^th July 2010 around 7.40 pm , I’ve experienced the first magical moment when my baby naturally searched for my breast for her first breastfeeding session. Alhamdulillah

But for the first night Auni Zahra had to stay at nursery due to my condition.  I was so weak due to low blood pressure and Tumpah Darah  after the delivery.  Poor My lil Auni and I was sad to see my husband had to sign the consent letter that they will feed Auni with formula milk during her stay at nursery..CRY!

After we went home, I kept try to breastfeed Auni but my milk seem wasn’t enough for Auni . She kept on crying and her tok mama tersayang couldn’t stand with her crying.. kecian katanya.. . so Auni got her formula milk again and again..Auni and Tok Mama were happy but mama CRY!.. I have tried so many food during pantang just to boost my breastmilk but I just didn’t work.  After a few massages  session with Bidan my breast milk started to increase but I had to experienced the SUPER SAKIT breast massages session…sumpah sakit as I might begged for the epidural or GA for this session.  The bidan said the breast have swollen, the nipples have clogged and at the time she massaged my nipple, I was screaming in pain and panicked when I saw my breast milk..terpancut di sana sini….terkena rak tv..terkena sofa..serius ngeri masa ni..

As a mother who was so determined to breastfeed her baby, I have tried one trick to breastfeed Auni.  As Auni loves her MAM bottle than her MAMA Booby so I will feed her with her bottle first..just for a few minutes..bagi die syok dulu..than I will remove the bottle and breastfeed her..the trick really worked on Auni and she will continue her feeding session.  After few weeks Auni Zahra has Fallen In love with my booby..Alhamdulillah..but I would say that breastfeeding wasn’t easy..sabar..sabar..during Auni’s breastfeeding session I would recite the doa…Ya Allah Ya Tuhanku..Bantula Auni Zahra Minum susu Mama..Cukupkan susu untuk Auni Yer..Amin..Amin..baca doa ni kuat2 masa susukan auni..lepas tu cakap dgn Auni yg die kena doa sama..amin sama..kita kena cakap2 selalu dgn anak2…minta die doakan juga..

There was always rain and shine on breastfeeding like sore nipple but please don’t give up, use medela purelan then we can continue the bf session. Masa mula2 baby latch tu sakit ya rabbi..rasa takmau bg dah..tapi cuba tahan sikit lepas tu Insyaallah bearable. I suffered with my back ache due to long hours of breastfeeding session..it’s a normal quote that babies will feed every two hour but my Auni will feed for two hour for one session..adus sakit pinggangku

After 6 month Auni has started her Formula Milk again due to lack of EBM stock..I’ve managed to supply about 15 oz during daytime but she need more than 20 oz but she will be exclusively breastfed during night time.

And Now after a year I still manage to breastfeed Auni..and up to my surprise that Auni now is exclusively breastfed..She really hates her bottle even with my breast milk.  She just wants the fresh milk from my booby. My lunch time will be Auni meal time and if I unable to see her during lunch time, she just drinks plain water..poor Auni. Luckily she eats a lot with a bowl of porridge 4 times a day..uuh my baby..

Dear mother..for me breastfeeding are:

Doa..Rezeki..sabar..support and knowledge

You know yourself…yang terbaik breastmilk la..kalau takde gak selepas berusaha bersungguh2 jangan la bersedih..mungkin takde rezeki..guna la susu formula dgn hati yang berat..cuba guna trick yg saya buat kat Auni..kalau dah rezeki anak ada la tu kan..kalau dah ade walaupun sikit pam jangan tak pam..kalau baby tak mo pam jugak..simpan..nak pastikan susu tu sentiasa ada

Kesimpulannya..anak saya awal2 dah campur susu..lepas sebulan..exclusive..lepas 5 bulan campur2 balik..skrg ni dah exclusively breastfed..lepas setahun..Alhamdulillah susu masih banyak..ok mother jgn putus asa yer..tak dapat banyak..dapat sikit jadi la..tak dapat lama..dapar sekejap jadi la…

Kalau dah takde rezeki jugak..takper..sabar dan teruskan berdoa agar ade rezeki untuk anak2 akan datang..jangan tertekan kerana kamu tetap ibu yang terbaik!

BOOBOO Monster aka hantu Tetek!

13 bulan

19 ogos  genap auni zahra 13 bulan..semakin bijak dan nakal..mulut pun bertambah riuh..rajin dn mengemas sampai baju bersih pun dimasukkan dlm laundry basket...vocabs pun dah banyak...
Air
Nak
Taknak
Tu..kalau nk something
Kakak
Abang
Baby
Tok
Fish
Cat
Bath...sambil cuba nk bukak baju dn berdiri dpn bilik air..nak mandi

Bila menangis...terus amik tangan tutup muka

Bila dgr bunyi kereta terus pg tingkap panggil papa

Bila lapar terus pg dapur sebut mamam...mamam

Bila tanya..where is auni zahra..cepat2 angkat tangan

Bila sebut cantik terus tunjuk baju die

dh pandai ajak main kejar2..aktiviti bila balik kerja.. mama akan jadi monster buat2 nak tangkap die..abis kelam kabut die lari kejar papa..nk minta tolong la kunun..bila mama dah penat tak mau main lagi..mula la die dtg acah2 lps tu lari..hiburkan diri sendiri..dah bosan melalak la..nk jugak paksa mama n papa kejar2 die..

nak susu / nenen dah pandai minta..nakkk..nakkk...lepas kenyang terus sebut dah..dah..

dah pandai aminkan doa...dah pandai tiru solat..takbir dgn sujud...bila mama nk solat di pun dah sebuk2 sujud kat depan..camano tu..kalau papa amik die..mesti melalak...

Tapi skrg ni bila dh dapat kaki...sgtla lasak..tak nak dukung..takmo stroller..nk berjalan sendiri..bila dukung mulalah mengamuk...papa..papa...auni ni kalau protes je mesti panggil papa die..sbb biasanya apa yg die nk papa ikutkan..mama lak garang sikit..

Semakin hari semakin bahagia melayan kerenah si kecik ni..

Alhamdulillah atas kurnian teristimewa ini....

Sayu hati

 

Terus terang bg ibu2 yg bekerja dn perlu menghantar anak ke nurseri atau pengasuh bukanlah satu pilihan yg mudah..tp krn terpaksa..dikuatkan juga hati ni utk melepaskan permata hati kesayangan utk dijaga oleh org lain...sepenuh kepercayaan diberi..dan doa serta rindu yg tk putus2 spjg hari di ofis...bg aku waktu lunch akan cuba utk menyusukan auni di nurseri..dpt la mengubat rindu..kadang bila pergi masa die tido..mesti rasa nk meraung..yelar..bila tgk si manja kita terlentang ramai2 tido..sayu..tp mmg dh mcm tu style duk kat taska..takkan nk aspect dieorg pangku..mendodoi anak kita spjg masa kan..pasrah..sbb tu bila balik ofis auni lgsg tak mau berenggang..aku biarkan sajer..walaupun berdukung..berpangku..berpeluk berjam2 sampai tk bole buat apa2 pun..aku tak kisah..papanya pun tak kisah..walaupun die yg terpaksa settle byk keja2 rumah..papa kata..kecian auni seharian kat nurseri..pandai2 sendiri...bila balik keja biarla kita layan die puas2...yela manja...apa2 saja asal kamu bahagia..apapun menghantar kamu utk dijaga oleh orang lain adalah sesuatu yg sukar..tapi mama kena redha..krn mama perlu mencari rezeki..doa mama agar kamu sentiasa dilindungi dn dijauhkn dr sgl bahaya...amin..

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she is ONE!

Alhamdulillah..my lil angel..sayang ..buchuk macham has turned ONE yesterday..being a mother is not easy but i always try to be a good mother for Auni Zahra..you just the greatest gift sayang! Mama and Papa loves u so much sayang!

lama sangat tak megupdate..sibuk..banyak perkara berlaku..just simple update..permata hati saya yang sudah sebelas bulan itu..sudah mendapat kaki..jenuh mngejar si kecik ni..gigi pun dah tumbuh satu..apapun mama sangat happy..Auni will turn one very soon..and mama is so busy with her first birthday party preparation!..sibuk mencari gambar masa preggy utk dipost disini..mengimbas kenangan masa mengandung Auni...itu saja..till the next entry!

Salam Sayang!

Puteri kecil saya yg baru 10 bulan tu dah pandai bersalam sejak semalam..tarik tangan mama dan papa kemudian dicium..ala comel jer bila tangan kecik bolat tu beriya-iya nak salam..mama gosok perut sambil mode nak nanges..sejuk perut mama lahirkan auni!..baru jer pandai main cak2..hari ni dah pandai salam..tak sabar setiap hari nak balik rumah tgk perkembangan terkini Auni Zahra...dah mari balik sekarang..nak bagi nutrient M kat auni biar lebih cerdik..sihat..dan kuat!

 kesayangan!

ooo..cak!

Auni semakin aktif dan becok sgt skrg ni..dah pandai mengacah papa..semalam duduk manja disebelah mama sambil main cak-cak dgn papa..auni cak papa..bila papa cak balik..mula buat2 menggeletis sembam muka atas peha mama..lepas tgk papa diam jer mulala nak cak papa balik..mcm anak burung mulut die..cak..cak..cak..bila papa agah lagi..terus sembam muka..mengekek-ngekek..buat-buat takut..bila angkat muka terperanjat pulak tgk papa dah ada depan die..menjerit-jerit gelak..lepas tu gelabah nak panjat-panjat mama..seronok betul main terperanjat2 mcm tu..riuh satu rumah..

Yang paling best sekali bila auni dah pandai panggil mama..asyik sebut mmmaaammm..mmaaammmaa..berkali-kali..suka la mama..

vocabs auni utk minggu ni..

mammmaa-mama
tok-atok
tet-cat
jajah-gajah
pishhh-fish
aappu-lampu sambil tunjuk lampu
abeng-abang
tatak-kakak
abed-bird
boo-book
bal-ball
eeeyyooo-tunjuk aeroplane sambil senget2 mulut tu..susah ni nk sebut

pandai kan dia!

three series

I am 30..yeah today is my birthday. Usually i will awake until midnight just to hear the first birthday wish from Faridz but last night i dozed off a bit early.  But Faridz has woke me up just to wish me and  I remembered that he kissed me, gave a birthday card and with my half opened eyes and dim bed light, i tried to read the card and that the end of the story...i felt asleep but i hoped that i thanked my husband for the wish and the card. Now i feel old and weak..sorry sayang being a working mama is not easy..eewaahh cantek punya alasan kan!

My wishlist before i turned 30..

1. Married-checked..purely lucky married to Faridz Amli..my husband and my truly friend

2. Having Children- Yes my lil Auni..after 3 years of waiting..and will try for another one soon..wish me luck

   hope to have 3 kids before 35..eewaahh..sakit beranak hari tu pun tak  lupa lagi..uppssand the stretch   

   marks still there ok!

3. House- i have one..Alhamdulillah

4. Car - my kelisa-sold..i heart Honda Stream..but need to wait till the next promotion..heheh..bila la tuh!

5. Oversea Vacation- None..has been canceled due to the bigger commitment toward my treatment and my  

    baby..maybe next time ok!

6 .Lots of saving - just a bit but Alhamdulillah..sikit-sikit lama2 jadi bukit

7. Designer bag- i have one Coach ajer..heart Neverfull Damier tu..betul ka eja..tapi mahal sgt..sila masuk

    wish list before age 35

 auni ada gusi bling..bling

Anyway..i feel so blessed and lucky..i have a wonderful family..a great husband..a cute daughter..my     everyday doa that may Allah bless me and my families with good health..wealth and happiness      forever!..amin..Ohh..i just discovered my new talent..i really can bake at the age of thirty..clap..clap to myself..heha!

Happy 10th Month Birthday Auni Zahra

She is just 10 month but as a biased mother i would say that Auni is a smart baby..cewah!..her milestones at 10 month..

She starts to love food..especially rice with fish and vege. The 10 months old baby prefer rice than pureed food and she will munch the food like nobody business even she not even has any teeth. Auni i so manja and she will eat more with hand feed..tok mama said is so berkat to eat from mama's hand..couldn't agree more tok mama!

She love papa the most..papa is fun..papa is full with funny tricks and game but mama is so boring..lots of instructions..lots of the dos and the dont's..sobs..sobs. She starts to call her papa at almost every time even when i teach her to call mama...auni sayang please call..Mama...Maaaammmaa..Mama..100 times..but she will reply paapaa!..

The little munchkin favorite animals are bird, cat and tiger..and she can make the sound of those animals..pandaikan die..hehe!

She also will raise up her hand when we asked..where is Auni Zahra?..clever!

She loves listen to the song and create her own dance.. like put her hand in the air, nod her head and shake her bambam..she just love to dance..no matter what songs is played..even when i zikir to her..oopss this is so wrong baby and mama will teach you later!

She will blow you a kiss when you say sayang..sayang. She love to kiss her books, her teddy and animals picture!

She will cry,scream, jumping and stretch her body when we deny her request..besar sikit mesti kena cubit! sabar mama!

her vocab..

papa..loud and clear and mama is so jealous ok!
mamam-makan
tatak- kakak/kids
nak-when she asks for something n nod her head

 drama air mata dan amukan akan berlaku bila benda alah ni berhenti..dah pandai tunjuk-tunjuk bila nampak benda ni..3 round baru ok!

 F1 driver is in the making..

Mama is busy..decorating her play room and planning for her first birthday..wish me luck!

10 bulan

thank you Allah for blessing me with Auni Zahra..i love her more than anything that world could offer..dear Auni my doa and love will always with you sayang...you're my dream come true sayang!..

Hi si seksi baldu merah...

Tadaaa......menjadi jugak si baldu merah ni...berdebar you nak menunggu siap..tapi alhamdulillah berkat berguru dan berkat kesabaran cikgu @ mummy sara yang sanggup mengajar dgn detail..akhirnya terhasil jugak RVC ni...rasanya...secara humble..bolela..tapi secara riaknya..mak aii  sedap gile tau..huhuhu..tak sabar nk buat lagi..wish me luck for the next attempt!

 meratakan frosting adalah sgt mencabar..dan org yang tak kreatif seperti saya menjadikan kek itu comot..tak tau nak stop camana..nasib baik ade strawberry buat cover!..

sgt bermewah dgn cream cheese frosting..and the taste is so yuummehhh!..

New ride

 excited!

 this is mine

 thumb up!

 its really good mama..and i love the Panda Momok!

 she doesn't look like 9 month old..chubby munchkin!

When i saw little kids were riding on this type of bicycle, i always told papa that i really cant wait to buy Auni one when she's big enough.  But when Auni tried her cousin's bicycle i was so surprised to see that my baby can sit upright on the bike. It means that Auni is big enough and ready to have her own bicycle.  So this one that papa and mama managed to get for Auni after long hours searching for pink bicycle.  The panda look scary and mama called it Panda Momok but the colour is so nice!

Suamiku..

Ya Allah bagi Mu segala kepujian dan kesyukuran sebagaimana layak untuk Mu dengan kebesaran kekuasaanMu dan kemulian wajahMu dan ketinggian kemulianMu 

yang bilamana Engkau menjadikan dia sebagai suamiku.

Ya Allah Engkau jadikanlah dia penyejuk mataku dan pembantu untuk aku mentaati Mu

Ya Allah Engkau jadikanlah aku sebagai penenang untuknya dan penasihat yang diberkati

Ya Allah Engkau kasihkan aku kepadanya dan kasihkanya kepada aku

Dan rezekikan kami zuriat yang soleh yang menjadi kebaikan kepada agama dan dunia

Ya Allah jadikan antara kami berdua sebagimana antara Ali dan Fatimah

Ya Allah satukan hatiku dengan hati-hati ahli keluarganya dengan rahmatMu 

Wahai Yang Maha Pemurah

 

Ya Allah tutupilah keburukanku padanya dan tutupilah keburukannya kepada ku

Dan perlihatkanlah kepadaku kebaikannya dan redhakan aku apa yang telah Kamu beri kepadaku dan berkati aku padanya

 

Ya Allah permudahkanlah ia bagi ku dan permudahkan urusanku bersamanya dan

jauhikanlah aku keburukannya 

Jadikanlah aku berpuashati dengannya dan dia berpuashati denganku

Ya Allah jadikanlah aku dimatanya hebat dan jadikanlah ia dimataku juga hebat

Ya Allah bukakanlah antaraku dan suamiku dan ahli keluarganya

sesungguhnya Engkau sebaik-baik pembuka

 

Ya Allah yang menghimpunkan manusia pada hari Kiamat, himpunkan aku dan suamiku dalam kebaikan

Ya Allah Engkau jadikan aku sebagaimana yang ia sayangi dan jadikan ia sebagaimana yang aku sayangi dan jadikan kami sebagaimana yang Engkau sayangi

 

Ya Allah Engkau jadikan hati suamiku tergantung kepadaMu dan kemudian tergantung kepada rasulMu dan kemudian kepadaku

Ya Allah Engkaulah yang menguruskan kenikmatan dan kelazatan dalam kesusahanku, 

Jadikanlah ketegasannya terhadapku suatu kesejukan dan keselamatan sebagaimana engkau jadikan api ke atas nabi Ibrahim suatu kesejukan dan keselamatan

 

Ya Allah berikanlah petunjuk kepadanya sebagaimana yang Engkau kehendaki dan redha

Ya Allah Engkau yakinkanlah hatiku bahawa sesungguhnya aku tidak akan dicelakai dan Engkau sentiasa bersamaku

 

Ya Allah perkenankanlah

Ya Allah berkatilah Cinta kami selamanya..Amin

 

cinta hati mama

Ganjaran Allah Buat Orang Yang Sabar!

Mendengar khabar gembira di hari Jumaat yang indah..Alhamdulillah..

Tahniah buat adik ipar Jusmaliza Emielia yang telah berjaya mendapat tawaran kerja di KL..mungkin ia kedengaran biasa-biasa sahaja.  Tapi bagi kami sekeluarga berita ni sangat la best!..Setelah hampir 3 tahun hidup berjauhan dengan suami akhirnya dapat jugak kembali dan yang paling indah adalah dapat bekerja satu ofis pulak dengan suami..

Sebenarnya kami sekeluarga kecian sgt kat my SIL sebab sejak lepas kahwin terus duk berjauhan.  Dulu BIL duk kerja kat paris dekat setahun kot..SIL pulak duk bekerja kat JB..masa tu die mengandung dan keguguran..sedih sangat kerana die terpaksa melalui saat-saat tu sorang-sorang kat JB..Nasib baikla BIL dapat pulang ke Malaysia masa SIL admitted kat JB.

Bila BIL dah balik sini..my SIL still keja kat JB..jadi weekend couple jer..tak lama lepas tu anak buah ku lahir..ibu and papa still duk berasingan..tapi memang my SIL sangat tabah orangnya..weekend berulang ke KL drive sorang dari JB bersama my lil Ariessa..tak dapat nak membayangkan sekiranya aku perlu berada di tempat dia..tak sanggup!

Bertemu suami pada hujung minggu sahaja adalah perkara yang sangat sukar bagi aku..apatah lagi ada si kecil yang sentiasa rindukan papanya..Tapi Allah sentiasa permudahkan segalanya..Ariessa anak yang bijak dan tak banyak ragamnya..bijak tak mau susahkan ibu..My SIL mampu drive ke KL dan Ariessa hanya tidur di sebelah..she such a good girl..

Yang paling kecian adalah apabila my SIL balik sini mesti dia akan berat hati semula nak balik JB..mesti amik cuti tambahan..jauh tu KL-Jb plus sorang plus ada baby kat sebelah..sampai terfikir nak berhenti la..tapi rezeki Allah tu tak siapa yang tahu..dalam sibuk berkira2 untuk berhenti terus dapat panggilan temuduga dan terus dapat offer tu..dan yang paling best dapat satu ofis dengan husband dan yang bertambah best sbb beberapa kawan ofis die pun dapat offer yang sama..

Indahkan..kalau dulu hujung minggu jer dapat naik kereta bersama..lepas ni hari-hari pergi kerja bersama..berkat sabar Jus dan Irfan akhirnya Allah berikan ganjaran yang terindah..kami sekeluarga sangat bersyukur di atas nikmat ni..dapatla mereka settle down di sini..dan yang paling penting my lil Ariessa dapat membesar di samping ibu dan papa setiap hari..genap-genap ariessa setahun..hadiah terbaik kan!

Sebagai kakak dan mama long Ariessa aku akan sentiasa mendoakan agar kebahagian sentiasa bersama mereka..semoga berbahagia melayari kehidupan berumah tangga yang sebenar..kalau masak jgn lupa hantar rumah yer..!
 

welcome home ibu and my dear Ariessa Sufeeya!

Wanted!

my humble most wanted item..........

ahaha..berangan..tapi yang sebenarnya saya memang nak membeli sebuah stand mixture mixer sebab nak belaja baking membaking la kononnya.. saya sangat berkobar-kobar utk bake a cake for Auni's first birthday..bole ke..jgn risau sebab saya takkan spoil birthday Auni dgn kek yg tak menjadi..saya kan berlatih dengan bersungguh-sungguh..tapi takde la sampai nak berkitchen2 aid bagai..cukupla kalau dapat beli satu yg jenama apa2 pun asalkan dapat memukul adunan kek saya sehingga kembang..di harap Mummy Sara sanggup la nak ajar saya nanti buat Red Velvet Cake yer nanti..tapi tetap nk order RVC utk birthday Auni nanti..manala tau my RVC nanti tak cukup...huhuhu tak hengat baru nk belaja terus nak buat RVC..saya akan buktikan nanti..ewaah!..tunggu post RVC nanti..hahah beriya!

mini RVC from Phatmummy...sangat sedap!..thanks yer atas pujian di atas kek tu..sangat terharu...hahaha!

Nine

My adorable Auni Zahra has turned 9 month old! she is really active and enjoying all over the place in the house with her super fast crawling.  She also now can stand up steadily by herself and start to walk by holding the edge of the sofa, tv cabinet, wall and everything that can be reached by her hand, though sometime it  might be something unstable and its always make mama scream or lost some breath just to grab or stop her from falling.  But the falling still do happen due to her super fast action and it will end up with tears for both mama and baby. The worst part was 2 weeks ago as Auni fell off and knocked her face on the floor and blood came out from her mouth.  I was panic and the mountain of guilt that i felt as the thing happened just before my eyes..sangat cuai ok!  i cry a lot nowadays..I will cry when baby is sick..cry again when she doesn't want to eat..cry when she doesn't want  to sleep as mama was damn tired..also still feel like crying everytime i  need to left Auni for work..uushh  sangat mengada mama ni..jangan blame Auni kalau dia mengada gak nanti..its all my gene!

Her progress @ Nine Month..

She can call her papa with different tone depending on her mood...ada mood mengada..ada mood menjerit..paling best bila mood ceria masa papa balik kerja..

She also can say MAMA and point her finger to me..mama also for mamam..and point the finger to the food..

She loves foods and mostly OUR food but hates pureed or baby food..sambil buat muka pelik geli geleman pastu uweekk..

She now manage to seek her milk factory by herself as mama was so in deep sleep and Auni was damn hungry..kesian anakku..

Her emotions are starting to bloom. She will cry when seeing papa/mama/nenek or tok mama is holding someone else/ her cousins..cemburu you! . She will laugh and smile from ear to ear when see papa and mama reach home after work  and she will scream when she wanted something that we totally ignore..kena jauhkan diri dari toys section sekiranya tidak berhasrat untuk membeli..kerana budak kecik itu sudah pandai berdrama..

Love to dance and love to jump especially on mama's tummy..mau semput! 

The cutest progress is she  can show the thumb up with her little gemok ibu jari everytime we say Auni Good Girl..and yes she is!

try to sneak out!

  got her first pokok kelapa!

geram tak dapat keluar!

 

 waving goodbye!

 Growing bigger and taller..baju seluar dah sendat!

How's time flies and she is already NINE..just few months away from her 1st birthday.  Dear Auni Zahra..mama and papa love u more than anything else..you are the love and the precious..you are our dream come true..we love u so  much angel!

oohh..Mr Mars!

Easy come, easy go
That's just how you live, oh
Take, take, take it all,
But you never give
Should of known you was trouble from the first kiss,
Why were they open?
Gave you all I had
And you tossed it in the trash
You tossed it in the trash, you did
To give me all your love is all I ever asked,
Cause what you don't understand is
I’d catch a grenade for ya (yeah, yeah, yeah)
Throw my hand on a blade for ya (yeah, yeah, yeah)
I’d jump in front of a train for ya (yeah, yeah , yeah)
You know I'd do anything for ya (yeah, yeah, yeah)
Oh, oh
I would go through all this pain,
Take a bullet straight through my brain,
Yes, I would die for ya baby;
But you won't do the same

No, no, no, no
Black, black, black and blue beat me till I'm numb
Tell the devil I said “hey” when you get back to where you're from
Mad woman, bad woman,
That's just what you are, yeah,
You’ll smile in my face then rip the breaks out my car
Gave you all I had
And you tossed it in the trash

You tossed it in the trash, yes you did
To give me all your love is all I ever asked
Cause what you don't understand is
I’d catch a grenade for ya (yeah, yeah, yeah)
Throw my hand on a blade for ya (yeah, yeah, yeah)
I’d jump in front of a train for ya (yeah, yeah , yeah)
You know I'd do anything for ya (yeah, yeah, yeah)
Oh, oh
I would go through all this pain,
Take a bullet straight through my brain,
Yes, I would die for ya baby;
But you won't do the same

If my body was on fire, ooh
You’ d watch me burn down in flames
You said you loved me you're a liar
Cause you never, ever, ever did baby...
But darling I’ll still catch a grenade for ya
Throw my hand on a blade for ya (yeah, yeah, yeah)
I’d jump in front of a train for ya (yeah, yeah , yeah)
You know I'd do anything for ya (yeah, yeah, yeah)
Oh, oh
I would go through all this pain,
Take a bullet straight through my brain,
Yes, I would die for ya baby;
But you won't do the same.
No, you won’t do the same,
You wouldn’t do the same,
Ooh, you’ll never do the same,
No, no, no, no

 

 

Even this song is all about betrayal and frustration..but this version really  made me LAYAN sampai terbuai-buai ..like super sweet love song!

Zahra oh Zahra

jumaat datang lagi..duduk di pejabat rindu-rinduan sama Zahra..setiap hari mengharapkan jumaat cepat datang..dan sabtu ahad terus kekal..biar dapat lama bersama Zahra saya..selamat berhujung minggu dan semoga berbahagia bersama keluarga tercinta

junior masterchef in the making

Its really hard to cook nowadays since Auni Zahra seem so active since she able to crawl. She will be everywhere in the house and it really dangerous to leave her unattended.  Mama was craving for home cooked meal which is so perasan and rindu dgn masakan sendiri yang sedap..sedap ke?  As mama really need to cook and need to look after the baby at the same time so mama have no choice than to bring Auni to the kitchen. Put her on the high chair with senduk as her toy seem like the most favorite session for auni. She was well behaved and mama managed to cook the super sedap lunch for our family.  Papa was really surprised that mama manage to cook without his assistance to look after the baby. I am a supermom and Auni just love her kitchen session..

Lapan Bulan

si manja mama Auni Zahra dah 8 bulan..

the updates on the 8th month

- Auni is babysitted by tok and nenek..pagi2 kita dah travel ke Kajang..the best part dapat breastfeed Auni all the way to nenek's house

- Auni akan menangis bila mama jengok die during lunch hour..berkejar die nak mama dukung..Auni rindu booboo..lapar dah

- Gelak mengekek bila nampak papa..walaupun masa tu papa tak buat apa..just pandang jer..auni sebut papa as APA..dgn gaya mengada..bila dah dgn papa mulut tu becok sgt..

- kalau nampak mama dan nak suruh mama amik die..mesti buat bunyi..umm..umm..umm...mungkin die suka nak panggil ummi kot..

- Auni dah bole merangkak..jenuh mama nak kejar..


- Kalau tak suka sesuatu dah pandai sebut ahh..ahh..sambil tepis-tepis tangan

- Kalau sebut bird..terus gelabah tengok langit..cari bird..

- Nampak cat terus meronta2 nak pegi dekat..pastu mulut membebel panggil cat with her own language..bila cat tu pergi..mula la nak melalak

- suka tiru papa buat bunyi bukan2..pastu berusaha nak buat sampai tersembur2 air liur

- suka sgt mandi tapi tak suka pakai baju..tiap kali pakai baju mestila ada drama air mata..kalau dapat pakai diapers jer lagi die suka sambil merangkak satu rumah

- pantang nampak semut kat lantai mesti kena kejar pastu kena tepuk auni..taik lalat papa pun Auni tepuk dan cubit..mungkin die ingat semut kot

- sangat2 manja..sampai rasa nak cubit..

 

with her 8th month super cute birthday gift..thanks to ELC for 50% off..kalau tak i tak beli pun

 mengada dengan new toy..

 papa i love the present

 suker sangat..

 she is supercute!

Happy 8 th month birthday sayang..semoga menjadi anak yang sihat sempurna,cerdik berakal,berilmu dan beramal soleh..i love u so much Auni Zahra

sayu

Saya sedih..sayu.. bila membaca  Nafastari terdetik utk membaca setelah melihatnya di blog seorang teman..membacanya setelah penulisnya tiada lagi..membaca coretannya buat puteri-puteri beliau membuatkan saya menangis sendiri..terlalu indah dan manis coretan yang ditinggalkan untuk kesayangannya..saya tidak mampu menulis..saya hanya terus menangis..dan menangis..terlalu sayu..semoga rohmu aman di sana..dan semoga damai dalam cinta penciptamu..

Buat puteri-puteri kecil itu..semoga Allah menyediakan segala yang terbaik untukmu..semoga kamu membesar dengan sempurna dan menjadi peneman ibumu di dunia ini..

nebulizer

 it was heartbreaking to see my baby in this condition..

 

ooohhh..munchkin!

My lil Auni now can clap her hand everytime we sing pok amai..amai..she also clap when we say yeaa..yeaa..yeaa..Auni good girl! and she will dance when mama make a sound like..lagu Ahmad Albab..what a bad choice for Auni..but she loves it so much!..and she loves to scratch and hit papa's face..which is not so good. I always tell her not to hit people's face, its not good. For me its not too early to teach her which is good or which bad even some might says that she is too young and never understand. But as her mother i believe that she will understand. And now mama is teaching her how to kiss and how to salam and can't wait to see her progress!

 Not to forget..she now can lift up her bambam and start to learn how to crawl..yeehaa!

 wif cousin Ariessa Sufeeya

 lets go Auni..move forward..don't be scared..i hold your hand ok!

 there are so many interesting things to grab on the floor!

i just found one!